It's gonna blow!

centipedes: yuta puta by karneamarga72 on Flickr.

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 21:20:26 -0600

centipedes:

yuta puta by karneamarga72 on Flickr.

german-expressionists: Kārlis Padegs, Red Laughter, 1931

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:40:27 -0600

german-expressionists:

Kārlis Padegs, Red Laughter, 1931

I'm crashing.

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 21:44:03 -0600

Bye, friends.

On the topic of romanticizing self harm...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 21:43:21 -0600

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

You know what isn’t tragically beautiful? Taking off your shirt, exposing your scars, and having a six year old girl scream in fear. She refused to have anything to do with me, even after mer mother tried to explain them as ‘battle scars’. Self harm is never pretty, you fucks.

You know what’s worse? Realizing that your 12 year old sister started scratching her arms :/

Yeah. It’s fucking dumb when people think sh is like damsel in distress pretty shit.

On the topic of romanticizing self harm...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 12:51:58 -0600

You know what isn’t tragically beautiful? Taking off your shirt, exposing your scars, and having a six year old girl scream in fear. She refused to have anything to do with me, even after mer mother tried to explain them as ‘battle scars’. Self harm is never pretty, you fucks.

And now mad world is stuck in my head.

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 15:41:18 -0600

FUCKS SAKE MILO. YOU’RE LONG GONE AND THAT SONG IS STILL HAUNTING ME.

I like it but it makes me feel like I should be somewhere else, and I can’t really do that.

houdini: shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 02:02:40 -0600

houdini: shit:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER…

sure.

:( I’m sorry!

jesusfuck, don’t be. you had nothing to do with this.

Ok :/

what are you doing up, anyway?

I’m camming with my other best friend who is being a drunk jerk hahahah and I haven’t taken my sleeping pills yet hahahaha REBEL!

i wish i had your life.

:( mine is ok, I wish you had a better life than mine

sorry. i’m getting offline now. i’m fucking exhausted.

houdini: shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 01:59:32 -0600

houdini: shit:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER…

sure.

:( I’m sorry!

jesusfuck, don’t be. you had nothing to do with this.

Ok :/

what are you doing up, anyway?

I’m camming with my other best friend who is being a drunk jerk hahahah and I haven’t taken my sleeping pills yet hahahaha REBEL!

i wish i had your life.

houdini: shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:49:23 -0600

houdini: shit:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER…

sure.

:( I’m sorry!

jesusfuck, don’t be. you had nothing to do with this.

Ok :/

what are you doing up, anyway?

houdini: shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:41:32 -0600

houdini: shit:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER…

sure.

:( I’m sorry!

jesusfuck, don’t be. you had nothing to do with this.

houdini: shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:39:42 -0600

houdini: shit:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER…

sure.

shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:34:27 -0600

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER AND HER GOD OBSESSION AND I AM DONE WITH THIS SHIT.

*bear hugs* I’m sorry she’s fucked you up so bad hun :(

i don’t care what happened i just wish she’d get the fuck out of my fucking goddamn head and let me sleep.

shit

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:30:09 -0600

i’m just going to come out and say it.

yeah, i was traumatized when I was little. my mother was literally mental, and not in the i-was-trying-to-get-better way. I HAVE FUCKING NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT DREAMING ABOUT HER AND HER GOD OBSESSION AND I AM DONE WITH THIS SHIT.

and back to the nightmares.

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 00:20:09 -0600

fuck all.

I was playing chess with Aretha and I nearly dozed off..

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:55:18 -0600

..okay, bedtime…

Sometimes I wonder what kind of trade I could get into.

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 13:47:32 -0600

I’m pretty sure I’m going to become an unskilled laborer… construction work here I come.

Seriously, I can’t stand academic stuff.

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 23:05:24 -0600

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

And I kept looking at my cutting stuff. And thinking.

And suddenly it dawned on me that my mother is not a person in my life, she’s an entity. Like God. She is all powerful and inescapable. In my mind, she has always been a force stronger than anything I could handle, the sun compared to my…

I HOPE I’M READING WRONG, I HOPE YOU DID NOT JUST CUT MOFO!

I did not just cut woman it happened last night. And in case you didn’t realize, I was having an introspective moment that I’m now going to shove deep inside me where it won’t see the light of day.

I noticed and I agree with you :/ but I’m more concerned about you hurting yourself babe :(

It wasn’t bad. I mostly controlled myself. In fact I was kind of proud that I didn’t do more damage.

Then I’m a little bit proud of you :)

I’m sorry, Ana.

Babe, I’m the one that’s sorry for not being able to be there :(

My life is pretty shitty, I don’t know why you’d want to be.

Cause I want to protect you :(

Ana, even jesus failed at that.

Fuck.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:51:02 -0600

I hate the realization I get every few months that, yeah, I ACTUALLY DO BELIEVE IN GOD. Because it reminds me that he’s an infinite asshole and it just upsets me.

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:44:50 -0600

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

And I kept looking at my cutting stuff. And thinking.

And suddenly it dawned on me that my mother is not a person in my life, she’s an entity. Like God. She is all powerful and inescapable. In my mind, she has always been a force stronger than anything I could handle, the sun compared to my…

I HOPE I’M READING WRONG, I HOPE YOU DID NOT JUST CUT MOFO!

I did not just cut woman it happened last night. And in case you didn’t realize, I was having an introspective moment that I’m now going to shove deep inside me where it won’t see the light of day.

I noticed and I agree with you :/ but I’m more concerned about you hurting yourself babe :(

It wasn’t bad. I mostly controlled myself. In fact I was kind of proud that I didn’t do more damage.

Then I’m a little bit proud of you :)

I’m sorry, Ana.

Babe, I’m the one that’s sorry for not being able to be there :(

My life is pretty shitty, I don’t know why you’d want to be.

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 22:38:26 -0600

It's gonna blow!: So I was up too late.:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

annabelwhite:

williamsexploding:

And I kept looking at my cutting stuff. And thinking.

And suddenly it dawned on me that my mother is not a person in my life, she’s an entity. Like God. She is all powerful and inescapable. In my mind, she has always been a force stronger than anything I could handle, the sun compared to my…

I HOPE I’M READING WRONG, I HOPE YOU DID NOT JUST CUT MOFO!

I did not just cut woman it happened last night. And in case you didn’t realize, I was having an introspective moment that I’m now going to shove deep inside me where it won’t see the light of day.

I noticed and I agree with you :/ but I’m more concerned about you hurting yourself babe :(

It wasn’t bad. I mostly controlled myself. In fact I was kind of proud that I didn’t do more damage.

Then I’m a little bit proud of you :)

I’m sorry, Ana.